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It Took Years to Learn This

It was something I didn’t know could happen to me. I did it because I had to. I hesitated to write this for obvious reasons, but I think people should know. It could happen to anyone.

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I enjoy talking to people. I like exchange, disagreement, curiosity. Yet my social media presence might suggest otherwise, as if I’ve built a wall around myself. I didn’t. Those walls are built for me. And I’m expected to accept them, work within them, and pretend they’re natural.

Tear down the wall!

For years, I assumed that if I struggled long enough, something would eventually become clear. That there would be a moment of clarity. A conclusion. Some kind of truth worth sharing.

After several years of struggling with this, it finally hit me.

“Sorry, no big revelation or truth here. I’m not there yet. Still working on it”
Pavel Guzenko
Senior Graphic Designer

My social media life is a mess. I quit Facebook in 2021. I tried to use Instagram the way it wanted me to be used, and eventually I failed there as well. At some point I needed a turning point. Or at least a pivot. 🛋️

I started wondering what people were actually interested in: something honest, or something that looked honest long enough to feel like breaking news. A revelation? A hidden truth? Something to react to immediately, preferably with “Bollocks!” Maybe feedback wasn’t what I needed. Maybe it was part of the problem.

So I decided to do less. Much less. I used social media only when I really had to. The result was simple: almost no activity. I posted nothing.

And as it turns out, my dog Pixel, a Jack Russell Terrier, taught me one very important thing:

“If you spend the entire day doing absolutely nothing, you can still be exhausted by the evening. Deeply. Profoundly. As if you’d done everything. ”
Pixel
Jack Russell Terrier

A lot of people say creatives should be active online. I think that sometimes stepping aside, not forward, seems like the only way to stay honest. I had a wise dog explain that to me.

This kind of nothingness makes sense. It isn’t easy, and it isn’t passive. It’s a choice!

So I’ll stick with it. Mostly.
And every now and then, I’ll break the silence with a Hit and Crash comic, because I miss doing it.

Feel free to read quietly. No comments required.

The cover image is a photo from my trip to Czechia in 2023. It was a great, relaxing and sunny trip 😉  

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